Too much thinking

Ive been home all day today and i have had too much time to think.I have gone back to thinking about stbx a lot and i am sad again.It dosent help that its friday and hes gone to OWS for the weekend.Im trying so hard to think of all the bad stuff but all the good stuff from the early days keeps popping up.I hate that i miss him,i hate what he has done to me and i hate being so sad.