too much pain

well, first 2 shows out of 6 start Saturday. im hurting so much now. last Saturday after going through Arabian once something happened to my ankle. hurts real bad, Chinese is going to be torture and i dont know it ill be able to do it without bursting into tears after i do it. so that adds 4 things on my right side that are injured. go figure.  i really want to cut.... its been bout a month maybe a month and i half since ive done something, i guess thats improvement? well, we'll see how well im doing that after i go to Boston Children's Hospital the end of the month..