Too Long----Too Often
I apologize to all of you here for my too long journal and writing them too often.
When I had my nervous breakdown in 1985, my Dr, suggested that I write things down that were on and in my mind. I guess all this stems from that practice for 8 months. I write down what I feel in my heart and to some I know it's boring and they feel it's just something I do.
I will do my best to refrain from doing this as often as I have. Again, I apologize. I say too much, too often and maybe that is wrong of me to do so. Seems like I do a lot of things wrong lately. Maybe that's why I feel abandoned, and rejected . Maybe I deserve it. There are few who really care what a man my age thinks anyway. The young macho men have all the answers nowdays. If you don't believe it, ask them. They have the money, the looks, the cars, the girls and the answers. I have forgot more than most of these guys will ever learn. Oh well, who cares anyway.
When I had my nervous breakdown in 1985, my Dr, suggested that I write things down that were on and in my mind. I guess all this stems from that practice for 8 months. I write down what I feel in my heart and to some I know it's boring and they feel it's just something I do.
I will do my best to refrain from doing this as often as I have. Again, I apologize. I say too much, too often and maybe that is wrong of me to do so. Seems like I do a lot of things wrong lately. Maybe that's why I feel abandoned, and rejected . Maybe I deserve it. There are few who really care what a man my age thinks anyway. The young macho men have all the answers nowdays. If you don't believe it, ask them. They have the money, the looks, the cars, the girls and the answers. I have forgot more than most of these guys will ever learn. Oh well, who cares anyway.
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Peewee I am so sorry to see how much you are suffering.. God bless you.. Please see the doc ASAP.. depression in such a deep dark pit.... Reach out for what you need... even if it means going to emerg... I think it is great that you journal and if it helps you then that is a wonderful thing.. you are never boring my friend.. I havent been on here as much lately due to feeling terrible myself.. but if you want to meet and chat please let me know when I will there
love for a wonderful man
Jan
Your Journal is YOUR Journal. The Journal feature is here for just that, to write out all our thoughts, feelings ect ect. We have the decision of reading it or not. But you keeep writing and writing. Dont censour, dont shorten it. Just write whatever and how ever much you need. Like I said this is YOUR Journal to get out Your feelings.
Peace and Love,
Allison
Pee Wee......... Please please don\'t apologize for anything.. your journal is YOUR JOURNAL, it is there for you to express your feelings. I know you are feeling really down, and you have been through so so much lately. Please don\'t put yourself down, you are a wonderful friend to many people and we all care about you. Love you PeeWee
Dont put yourself down. You have had enough of the verbal abuse, just from you. Your a great man reguardless of your age. Woman our age wld love to have a man so good. Big hugs~~~Debbie
peewee, write when ever you want as often as you want, and know that you are loved not only by many but by the one who really counts the most, our dear Lord and savior Jesus Christ.
WHY are you apologizing for the length of your journal entry??? because i didn\'t hear anybody complaining about it! Is it maybe just your own insecurities talking? i\'m saying this to help you, not to upset you. I like what Debbie said. Don\'t verbally and emotionally abuse yourself with negative self-talk!
this is your journal and as such you are entitled to write as long a journal as you need to write! we are but freeloaders looking into your heart and soul and therefore no one should say anything about the length of your journals!!! you are a gifted writer and i for one love to read your journals when i come on here.