Too Early

I can't sleep anymore, for the past month or so I can only sleep for a couple of hours then I have to get up and I'm so tired a few hours later that I pass out, but I can only sleep for an hour and it's just getting so ridiculous. My boyfriend, Jordan, think I'm avoiding him by staying up while he's asleep so I have an excuse. I just wanna sleep like a normal person. I want a job and money like a normal person. All of my friends are so mature and "adulting" like with their own places and jobs and stuff. And we just sit around all day, I mean we try to get jobs but everyone just won't give us a fucking chance.
I went to five different interviews and every time they look directly at my scars and assume that I am "unstable" "unreliable" and just an all around freak. It's not like I can just get rid of them otherwise I would. I can't stand the way people look at me, it's not just my scars it's my entire being, there's something about me that just screams shitty. I don't know.. maybe it's just me but my friend Renae thinks people look at me weird. She said, "maybe you should wear different clothes." all bitchy like I have a whole other wardrobe I could just switch to, and I like my clothes. How am I supposed to be better when NO ONE will give me a chance??