tonight will be tough

I am a little anxious about tonight. I am going to a bridal shower/dinner with my partner.  I don't know too many of the women attending and I feel a little insecure.  it will be the first time that some of these friends of my partner even find out that she is dating a woman and they are all physicians so lots of anxiety. i feel a little insecure around all the big brains. i am not a dummy, but medicine isn't where i excel so i tend to lack the conversational tools to get by. at least when they have their significant others with them i talk to the other non-doctors. the restaurant that we are going to is one that everyone brings their own bottle of wine, and damn it, do i love wine, especially when it makes me feel more comfortable in a situation. i will order my usual, club soda and lime. but really i am having, for the first time in a long time, the major desire to drink.