tonight is better

Hello my dear sisters, I just wanted to let you know that Joshua & Christina came over for Sunday dinner with their mom. That's what we do every Sunday. Joshua was in a better mood & while he doesn't really want to discuss having a relationship with my son's father, he was able to express what he felt appropriately. We are leaving it alone & respecting each other's point of view & we'll see what happens as time goes on. He may come around to forgiveness & acceptance. So all in all things are better.

I was so depressed earlier but journaling helped & I ripped out the summer garden & planted spring bulbs so that helped to discharge some of the negative energy. I'm still a little sad. Just missing Eddie & how my life used to be. Ed was the person I was closest to in all of my life. I raised him myself after I got divorced & I didn't have family around. My mother moved to Florida in when Eddie was10, (not that it was a bad thing), lol! She lived there for 20 years & came back in 2001. Anyhow, Eddie & I were close & as an adult he was my best friend & I think he would tell you -I was his. I so want off this roller coaster of emotion & pain, but that's not what it is going to be. Eddie has taught me that some days are harder & some days are lighter/easier. So I look forward to a lighter day tomorrow.
Thanks to all of you for your comments, support & understanding. FMO helps me stay sane during the darkest times.
Love and peace to all. Linda

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I am glad today was a good productive day for you. I find working in the yard helps my mood. I know we just miss our boys. Sending you hugs and thinking to the future of those beautiful flowers blooming in springtime . Wendy
KimRW
KimRW

So glad that dinner was good and Josh will handle it in his way in time. I know how much you miss Eddie. He was blessed with a mom that he could be so close to. Chris & I were very close too, so I really understand exactly what you mean. Some days are lighter than others and when we have those days, we are thankful! I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. I\'m so glad that journaling is helping you. Love & Hugs to you! Kim
DunneL
DunneL

Oh, I know! I think being a single mom (even for awhile) with a son makes you so very close. How many times do I wish I could talk w/ Jon about something. Or feel his hug. (He was a full foot taller than me.) But it seems like you\'re doing all the right things and I can tell, from what you\'ve written about him, that Eddie would be so proud of you. I\'m so glad you\'re being able to work things through with your grandchildren too. With love, Linda J
momjmc
momjmc

Here to help keep you sane! How nice to have Sunday dinner every week with family...
Love, prayers, and hugs, Sharon