Tonight I start......

Tonight........ I'm going to do something different. I'm typing this, I feel I need to start working on myself. I try and try to tell myself it's all gonna be ok. But my over active brain wants to scream something else. Get to the point.... Right. 
I started last year having anxiety, at first didn't know what it was. I'm allergic to shell fish and had two cross contamination episodes in two weeks. From that point on, every time I felt something funny in my throat I would panic. I now have developed this weird uncontrollable throat swelling (at least I think it's swelling) anxiety. I thought I understood all the different signs. Well I felt a different symptom with my tongue and boom couldn't control myself, had to go to hospital.... I just knew it was swollen, but heck no it was AGAIN anxiety. I just feel so dumb and alone in this like I'm crazy. It's so frustrating I just pray and pray for relief.