Tomorrow Will Be December 30th I Am So Sad

tomorrow is almost here... mostly I'm trying not to think that it will be the 30th... but I know... I hope we're crazy busy at 6:02am so I won't be staring at the clock... I went to the office holiday party this evening... I really thought I didn't want to go but my husband told my boss we'd be there... as much as he and his family have been through I knew I couldn't be that rude... I didn't and no one else mentioned Cara's name... but I thought of her... last year was the first and only year she made it to my company's holiday party... she wore a black dress that I really didn't like but then when she saw how casual we all were she put on a sweat shirt and jeans and looked as always gorgeous... She just raved over how good every thing was and how much she enjoyed it... she said we could count on it she would be there every year from now on... well... if she was there it was only in my heart... I guess she was... and I'm ok... but I sure miss her... You smile and laugh and carry on as usual... that's what you're supposed to do... and if you cry when you go home... I guess that's what you're supposed to do too... I miss you Cara...