Tomorrow is THE Appointment

I can't beleive it. My appointment is tomorrow. My day job is crazy so I have the computer at home and I have to dedicate this afternoon and tomorrow morning with that mess, but it will help the time pass and I won't think about it. I keep crying everytime I think about the appt as it feels like my last hope and I tried to ask my 22 year old son to go with me but it didn't go well. (I backed down because I didn't want to burden him with my truth) Then my hubby Jim got laid off on Friday and said he would go with me on Monday. I told him it would take 2 hours and he said that was no big deal. He didn't even know how emotional I was about this (or did he?!) I'm usually so independant. I guess with all your prayers of support, the God/universe provides what I need to get me there. Logic says something has to change with effort, but doubt says life has no guarantees and this fellow is still a wildcard and I don't know where I stand in my race in life. I don't know that I can take much more head pain on such a daily basis. Anyways, thank you guys for getting me here and all of your support. I was lost when I found you and you have been pivitol in getting me here. I will post again after the appointment and I'm optomistic that it will be good news. Angela