tomorrow is a new day

Today just sucks. All around it just sucked. I woke up, and everything was ok. Nothing special. My mom came home and freaked out on me. All over a messy house. I hope my fiance finds a better job soon, so that I'm not stuck living there. It isn't bad, but for fuck sakes I'm 26. It is aggravating because sometimes it feels like I'm the only who makes a damn mess. I understand that my mom works a crap ton, and normally I try to keep up on everything after I get out of work. I'm a home health aid, and I clean up after everyone at their house, so that's the last thing I wanna do when I come home. This job is getting to me. Maybe, I'm just depressed and everything is getting to me. It feels as if I've been in a funk after the mc. I have good days, and I'm doing a lot better, but still. We are trying (not hardcore into it) again, and I hope this is the month. But I hate getting my hopes up. I just don't know anymore.  Ugh! I just want to scream, but it truly is useless.