Todays wen't so bad.

Well today was fucking horrible, I failed my math test which I didn't properly prepare for which was my fault well everything is my fault, but I thought things would go a little better. I was expecting the day to be a little frustrating but it was way beyond that, I was so late to class today and I haven't eaten anything all day. I went to the gas station to put gas in my car because I was low and what do you know?? My gas card doesn't work for some strange ass reason so I am biting the bit to get to class and back home. I also received a parking ticket today which I WILL NOT pay because I hate all fucking cops corrupt bastards... Not like taking me to jail was enough no you have to give me a parking violation FUCK YOU I am not paying it take me to court I don't give a shit anymore. I also am just very upset by the way things are going in track, I was comming off a week last week where I did really well and broke my personal record in the 400, but since then I have just been preforming poorly and I think my teammates are getting really down on me like I am not interested in helping them out anymore after running my time that will get me into a good college. Well it's NOT true the only thing I do care about is winning...no matter what school I am at, I have had that mentality since high school. Like today everyone was waiting for practice to start and I was looking for someone to warm up a mile with and no body wanted to run with me, so I ended up running by myself while everyone else had a partner same thing at the end of practice where we run a mile I was by myself. So I don't know of course I don't want to quit because I need track for college, but I just don't want to be there anymore I feel really bad that I haven't been running good and I can't quite put my finger on why that is. I must just be exhausted or something. So my school work and my athletics have been slowly declining and I need to get on the ball ASAP or thing just might get worse. But as far as the tickets I have been getting I have parked in the same place for about half the year with no issue and JUST TODAY they decide to give me a ticket after going months and months in the same spot. Just ridiculous I swear I hate the cops so much they treat people so unfairly and I sure wish I could do something about it because I would. That's over $500 dollars of bullshit tickets that just take away from my paycheck. I hate the way things are going right now and I have no friends to fall back on so here I am rambling to myself because I have no one else to talk to...I wish I wasn't so alone in this world...oh yeah and this is for the cops of the world a nice FUCK YOU! from me to you...