Today's been a better day, and more peacefulness. focused on health ,peace, and joy :)

Happy cool thursday wishes :) Thank you angel friends ,for your comforting comments, support, and encouragement :) i'm very thankful for everything , and taking time to write, it's gonna continue to help me feel balanced again. :) Holly and i went outside for a refreshing nature walk, tended our plants, and also getting ready for a fun baking friday adventure tomorrow :)

Focused on some good peaceful space, positive energy, and focused on my health too :) It's very helpful to me, writing ,sharing some thoughts, feelings ,and emotions i've been experiencing, i feel like it's been building up within me lately, and it's theraputic for me to write, and sharing so that i can re-balance,and let all of my thoughts settle again. everyone's guidance, encouragement, advice and support is helping me :) We hope everyone is doing well, and having a peaceful day :) Holly and i went outside earlier for a nice refreshing nature walk ,and we also watered our plants :)it's sunny and was nice to be amongst the garden, and nature :) The plants are doing well, and soaking up lots of sunshine :) Holly and i look forward to lots more adventures outside in our yard ,and garden :) We called our friend Shirley today, and also put the sports radio on :) keeping with a good balance with the day, is helping ,especially after getting knocked off balance yesterday evening.

i'm thinking about how i want to continu to focus on my health,and keeping my anxiety/stress under control, by creating a good boundary of space, and positive energy to keep surrounded by. When it comes to my family, and their issues they encounter with their financial situations. i feel like, when they are all having a rough time, and i'm feeling peaceful and relaxed, it's those times, when they seem to invade my peaceful space, which is the most frustrating. Like last evening, i was feeling well, and just going up to prepare dinner,and then having their money issues trickle down upon me, upon my peacefulness, and in my thoughts. i think what frustates me the most, is when i kindly ask my mom, no to talk with me about money situations family are having. i feel like, it'll lead to me getting stressed, and being asked for more money. i believe ,when i have helped my family, and then the days go forward, i of course look forward to being paid back ,but when i ask family to kinda give me my space, and not discuss money and they do listen to my health wishes, that's what really gets to me ,it disrupts my peace.

i talked with my mom more today, and also Holly has talked with me too. i truly believe, when i help my family with financial situations, i should then at least be left alone by them, and not having to always talk money. i like to talk about sports, nature, gardening. it needs to be more balanced. i feel like i'm a 24/7 repair/helper man sometimes here in our house too ,my parents sometimes have issue with their online sites, passwords, and i often get called upstairs, to help them out, and i try to givie them all the details/instructions, as it happens often where they need to change passwords. sometimes, i end up feeling frazzled, and there's been times i've been sleepy, falling asleep on our couch after 8pm. i want to focus on my peaceful space, and even when i help my family out, they need to respect that i helped them, and need my space while not focused on money, or talking about their money issues. it's just something that really gets the anxiety and stress flowing within me. i'm gonna continue to work on, speaking up for myself, when there's a subject i don't want to discuss, like money, and also that when i'm in the middle of something, like writing, i just can't pop upstairs and be the 24/7 fixer/helper all the time, i have days to go about my things i'm doing, and i love my hobbies, like sports, collectibles, nature, and gardening. i feel bad when i don't get time to enjoy those hobbies, it really disrupts me and makes me feel like family drags me into their chaos of confusion. i need my, me time too, and gonna continue to work on doing things for myself. i'll always be there for family, and friends, and i love spending time here on DS, it's comforting to me :)

Last night, Holly and i didn't get to watch ghost hunters. We're gonna watch some episodes tonight :)my dad seems calm today, and went out to do some uber driving. Holly and i have mostly been here in our downstairs apartment. We're gonna eat dinner at our usual time this evening, and gonna go to sleep earlier tonight, to catch up on some rest. my brain feels tired, but i'm ok, and i believe each day forward, i'll get balanced again ,to a good healthy level i'm use too, but it's been so very helpful writing out some feelings ,and emotions. i've had to for some time, but yesterday evenings escalation of unfair chaos, and confusion, really pushed me to the edge and over it, and i needed to write. i want to focus more on my health,and less focus on my family's money issues. Holly and i are planning on a weekend at home this week, after baking friday tomorrow. it'll be so nice ,just resting up, and enjoying our garden, movies, TWD, and earning online :) keeping focused on good health ,is my #1 goal :) Thank you all again ,our dear angel friends :)We all say hi :)Holly and i Tiger girl have been hanging out with me on our couch today :) we're looking forward to continued days, healing forward, and achieving back to a very good balance with our days :)

-never lose hope :)

Sunny greetings, from our garden :)one of our favorite joys, nature, and gardening :)Holly and i gave our plants a good watering this afternoon :)the plants are super growing :) We're gonna have some more cucumber slices this evening :)The garden is growing nicely, sunflowers growing tall :) i took some new pictures to share :) 

Yellow Zinnia blossoming :) 

Pumpkin growing :) 

Sunflower blossom growing :) 

beefsteak tomato growing :) 

cucumbers are growing plentiful :)

Sunflower blossom :)