Today was the hardest one yet...

It hadn't gotten this bad yet, but today was absolutely terrible.  I was really hoping to get through this without any meds, but I don't think I can do it.  I can find distractions and think positive and stop myself from cutting, but I can't make this empty, broken feeling go away.  Not on my own.  I had to draw two butterflies today and even that only barely kept me from cutting.  It did nothing for the way I was feeling.  Hopefully I can actually talk to my therapist about this when I go.  It seems like every time I go see her, I have an amazing day or two right before I go and I end up forgetting how completely helpless I felt the rest of the week. 
I just want to be better.  That's all I want...

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flowerEx3
flowerEx3

I cannot for the life of me figure out how to make the stupid slider progress bar thing work correctly. It\'s supposed to say 2% at this point but it skips straight to 4. Anyone know how to make it work? (As if anyone even reads any of my stuff...)
ArtistMWS
ArtistMWS

Well surprise surprise I read your stuff :P but I don\'t know how the slider works; maybe it\'s extremely sensitive.
flowerEx3
flowerEx3

I don\'t know. I can only get it to go to numbers that end in 0, 4, 5 or 9. It\'s really odd.
ArtistMWS
ArtistMWS

maybe it\'s a glitch they\'re having; for now I\'d go to number 4 if that works for ya
ArtistMWS
ArtistMWS

oh and I forgot to add, I hope you don\'t forget to talk with your therapist about the last cpl days; maybe they can give you some new ideas that\'ll help ; hugs hon
flowerEx3
flowerEx3

Ok. Thank you.
ArtistMWS
ArtistMWS

not a problem at all hon; always here for ya :)