Today was a bad day

I cheated. I am trying to make amends. I am doing everything he asks. He is out tonight. Out drinking. I am so scared he is going to bring someone home or go home with someone. He says hes not going to but as soon as i told him my fears he laughed. He asked me to tell him how I feel so we don’t get to the point we were at before but then he laughs at me. I don’t know what to do.