Today sucks

Today sucks already. Today is one of my children's birthdays, and I doubt that I am even going to be able to talk to him. 

His dad just keeps kicking me out of my child's life, and I don't feel like I have any course of action. This man moved my son 3,000 miles without any consideration. He basically refuses me visitation even through phone contact, and refuses to even give my son the things that I have tried to give to him (ie. Xbox 360-Christmas gift, Netflix -entertainment because I had an account). All I want is to be apart of my son's life, and it is upsetting that he is allowed to take these things from me. I went from being the main support in his life (ie I cooked, cleaned, walked him to school and home every day, and still managed to work a full-time job) while his father was "too sick to do anything". Even when I left his father, I still got to see my son every day before school. To go from having unfeathered access to my child, to barely even being able to see him is beyond devastating. It crushed me emotionally, and mentally. And on top of dealing with that separation, also having to deal with the emotional devastation of the other trauma caused by this man