Today sucks.
Hi honey, we r at 13 yrs now and it sucks u r not here with me to make it a good day. I miss u more everyday and just dont want to keep going on with out u. U have always been there if I was having a bad day and now I have no one. Mom hasnt called me since saturday, I guess they just dont give a crap about me or the kids. I sure could use ur word of wisdom about now. I have already got most of dinner started now it is going to sit in the roaster and cook until its time to eat. I know ppl keep asking me to go place but I just dont feel right with out u going . I know we really didnt do things together offen but if u werent with me u were here at home a text away and now I dont have that. I wish we could be fishing or some together today.Sweetheart my life sucks horrible without u . What I would give just to hear u hug u or do anything with u . I hope u remember how much u mean to me . I know ppl r say that its not healthy that I still have u in our bed but I just cant take ur ashes off ur side of the bed yet. In time I will but just not yet. I love u with everything in me and just cant understand y god needed u so bad. I know he is up there taking good care of u but I want to be right beside u and not here alone.Well the kids have there friends over and now I feel like it is to much for me to have all these kids here anymore. We cant see any fireworks down here to day but maybe u will get to see them up there. Well babe I think I am going to see u later .I love u so much . Love u always and 4-ever , ur wife
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Boy do i get this my friend. Many times Greg and I did things apart, but we sent pics to each other, songs to each other and wer ALWAYS connected. I so get it. i miss those txts sooo much. miss those hugs and those random songs i\'d get out of no where.
You know alos, that there is NOTHNG wrong with having your husband close to you in whatever way makes YOU feel better about surviving this. There is NO right or wrong. My MIL was having a hard time and wanted some of Greg to have close to her. I gave her some and we sewed him inside of a teddy bear. she now sleeps with that bear, and it gives her comfort.
Love to you my friend and to making it through yet another horrible first knowing you are still here still breathing and still standing Diane
I understand too. So many times I think wait till Brian sees something at home but he isn\'t here to see it. No it is ok to have him with you in the bed. It\'s only been 4 weeks for me but I can\'t bear to get rid of his clothes. His shoes are still on the back porch and his caps are hanging there to. It\'s comforting to me to have them there. The people that say that don\'t understand and haven\'t been where we are.
Love Julie