Today\'s thoughts

Well...it's been an ok week.  Very busy at work but my mind always seems to wonder.  I walk to the train everyday and think and probaby secretly hope that he is going to be driving down the street.  Will he see me?  Has he maybe seen me and not stopped?  What will I do when and if I do see him again?  Those are questions that go on and on in my mind.....so I would suppose that I will deal with it as such when the time presents itself.I have thought about getting rid of my memories.....pictures, cards etc. but I'm just not ready to let it go.  I don't think that I have to.  I have also thought about throwing myself a breakup shower for all of my friends to celebrate but then who would come?I've tried dating again but I'm not really sure I'm ready to get into that full force.  It's fun but I walk away from the dates feeling bad and thinking other thoughts.  This too shall pass and I hope that someday I can look back on this time and see.....I got through it.I'm so thankful for my friends and my kids....don't know where I would be without them....I am truly blessed....M