Today's thoughts

Well...he's been "seen"!  Maria ran into T last Friday at the Redstone of course.  Looks like he is still out there...going to the same places.  He asked about me first thing to her.  She said Melanie is great and that is all I want to discuss with you about her.  So brave of her!  Just love her to pieces for that....How do I feel you ask?  Numb; unsure of my feelings.....all of the above.  Have this urge to reach out and talk to him but have to keep myself from doing that.  I would have hoped that those feelings would have somewhat subsided but not seeming that they are.  Just have to be patient with "me" and that's all I can do for now.....