Today's mood

Not very strong and not very fresh.  I have no goal in feeling better.  Do I need a goal.  I don't know.  Tired of all the thoughts of death and it is making me tired.  I want to feel ok with dying.  But it is tough.  I have to battle all these taboos.  It is very difficult.  I am running low on energy and I am very sleepy most of the day.  I keep it up by playing Wii which is active and loging onto Daily Strength every once in a while but I am worried and I am giong to go through myself into bed and if I do that my mood will go down and when I wake up I will feel exhasted.  AGHHHH the resilience of keeping my mind sharp and my thoughts flowing is difficult, especially when battling a taboo such as death.  It is good to keep my mood elevated. Damn it.