Today’s a new day with endless possibilities

Wow, I'm really doing this... I'm taking the next step towards getting the help I need to break free from this painful cycle of relationship addiction (codependency). I've been concerned about other's feelings as long as I can remember. 
I know my childhood abuse laid the foundations of this house and I can also see the destruction the termites are creating. It's time to tear the house down and start over again with a new foundation. This time God is my foundation and I'm asking him to be the builder. Right now I'm asking myself if I can stay in my marriage that has been destructive since the day I said I do, the lies and women slowly came out of the woodwork and I accepted the excuses and enabled his behavior. I won't allow the lies anymore, I finally see I can do something. God I recognize I am powerless over my inability to take on other peoples feelings and responsibilities to my detriment and theirs. I now know this isn't what you want for us and I'm asking you to help us individually and collectively. I pray each of us would be willing to do the hard work it takes to be free of the lies and if he won't, help me to accept the things I can't change and give me courage to change the things I can. Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace.