Today is Weird

Do you ever feel like your whole day got off to the wrong start and that you need to go back home, get back in bed, and start over?

I wouldn't say today is bad, just weird. And of course I've been triggered and angry multiple times today.

Started off having to do laundry soon as I got up. Coffee creamer was spoiled so I had no coffee. Got to work and felt loopy the first hour or 2 so I drank a mountain dew. Don't feel like going to the gym tonight. Was planning to relax when I get off and do some crafts.

Of course that won't happen. My whiny mother will likely have some huge drama and a ton of housework for me to do when I get home.

And now my fiance is being a codependent little bitch as usual. He is trying to start a fight over nothing, literally nothing. He is mad because he can't figure out what he wants to do tonight or tomorrow, neither of which have anything to do with me. He wants me to go with him to run his errands just to keep him company. I'm like I already have plans to work on art projects sorry.

Then work is stupid. Our cleaning lady isn't doing her job and one of my co-workers was bored so she went upstairs to play in the shred room. There is plenty to be done here, clean something, wait on customers. I'm still trying to get my orders done because I had to wait on customers and cover the drive thru girl, who seems to think she gets an extra long lunch.

I tried to relax at lunch by watching YouTube. I always try to make a comment on my subscription videos because they make more money that way. Alot of people I subscribe to are people who have the same education background as me so I make intelligent comments. I been fighting on YouTube this afternoon with some vain bitch whose education consists of Google. It just really irritated me because I studied something for six years at University and practiced and have taught and self taught, but because I don't have social media and Google the newest self hate trend, I'm apparently stupid.

I'm ignoring YouTube now before I get banned. And now I really don't want to go to the gym because one of the personal trainers there is like this commenter on YouTube. She doesn't know as much as she thinks and doesn't have experience. I stopped going to her classes because she was teaching moves wrong. She got on me for doing a move "wrong" when she was teaching the modified version for fat people with joint problems. I was doing the normal way. She also makes false statements about anatomy all the time.

It just depresses me how fast stupidity is spreading now. Everyone has their own definition of reality I guess. I'm sick of feeling like I have to argue with everything and everyone. I just want to go home and relax but now I feel dread. Maybe I should go to the gym. But I really just want to relax and do art. I shouldn't feel like I will be punished for that.