Today is one of those days i just dont want to exist

Normally i can handle my need to wear diapers, and on any given day i have plenty of hand pain that makes them not really want to work.  But today just seems like one of those extreme days that i cannot seem to handle.  I've been in tears all day and i cannot shrug the pain away like i normally can.  *sigh* Well i wont get too far into my journal or it will become hard to finish.  I'm going to end here and I'll pick up another time when my hands dont hurt so much.