today is no exception

I cant say what i wanna say. what do you do when someone tells you they dont wanna be with you? Or when they say they dont believe in somthing that was the basis of why you got married? What do you do when they tell you they dont want you? When they tell you thier heart is not in it, I guess what i will do is go to church come home raise my daughter. Because his family hates me. I hate me. Im so sick. I think of suicide daily now. I thinl what a relief it would be just to not feel anything. But then i see my daughter. This is not what i thought married life would be like. Im super sick i just wish life could be different . I cant sy anything. I have to be quiet. I have completely ruined someones life. I mean all this is my fault. I never saw us ending up like this. I am very unhappy.