Today I Realized...I Have an addiction

Today, I came to face with my demons that I have an addiction. Lying. I have more than one addiction I also am addicted to vaping (Smoking). I just realzied that both of these things have made a bad impact on my life and I need to stop I am trying to be a better person I am in church now I just need advice from my peers and guidance from them to help me get through and overcome this. People tell me I am a good person but I know deep down if I didn't lie or smoke I could be an even better person but me myself and I are the only thing standing between myself and That goal. I have ruined mine and my partners sex life. We are or should I say were a BDSM couple but after the stuff came out today he said he wasn't going to do that stuff to me anymore all because I told him I lie about not wanting anal sometimes. I have ruined our trust he only trusts half of what I say now hopefully I will gain that back but if not. I guess I will have to live with it the rest of my life knowing I am the one who caused all this pain. I just want to get help and if I lose this relationship with this man hopefully I can over come the lying to be in another relationship one day he says he isn't going to leave and I hope he doesnt I know he wont but if I continue to lie he will. I just hope admitting this to myself will help me start on the road to recovery.