today I feel emotional and full of hurt
I feel tense almost all the time
I have a feeling like something bad Is going to happen, I feel scared all the time
I can’t seem to laugh about things as much
I constantly worry about everything
I can’t relax
I feel like everything is moving slowly, time, me, my brain
I feel paniced by everything
My heart pounds really hard at random moments, even if I am just sitting on the couch doing the same thing.
I have achy muscles, a headache, and dry hands.
I don’t feel like I’m going through great times in life right now, but I don’t feel overwhelmed by challeneges either. I don’t have much to complain about. I don’t feel like I have any reasons to be feeling this way. My family loves me, my boyfriend is wonderful and our relationship is great except for my unhappiness with the world, my sister moved across the country who I miss terribly but she is following her dreams and I am proud of her for that, Almost all of my good friends have moved away either back home after college or are in college or are working somewhere and busy but I feel like I’ve found a job I really enjoy although it doesn’t totally pay the bills, I am still proud of myself.
Incident #1: I am having a HARD time getting over a legal event that happened to a co-worker.
Incident #2: House episode that made me feel like I was a medical case and I’ll never be cured and I’ll have to take pills the rest of my life and continue to make life hard for those around me.
I feel guilty for being who I am, I am a burden to my parents no matter how nice they are about it, my medical issues will need to be paid for by them for a long time to come and I'm 24 years old. How will I ever move forward with my life if I can't even afford my own life?
I have a feeling like something bad Is going to happen, I feel scared all the time
I can’t seem to laugh about things as much
I constantly worry about everything
I can’t relax
I feel like everything is moving slowly, time, me, my brain
I feel paniced by everything
My heart pounds really hard at random moments, even if I am just sitting on the couch doing the same thing.
I have achy muscles, a headache, and dry hands.
I don’t feel like I’m going through great times in life right now, but I don’t feel overwhelmed by challeneges either. I don’t have much to complain about. I don’t feel like I have any reasons to be feeling this way. My family loves me, my boyfriend is wonderful and our relationship is great except for my unhappiness with the world, my sister moved across the country who I miss terribly but she is following her dreams and I am proud of her for that, Almost all of my good friends have moved away either back home after college or are in college or are working somewhere and busy but I feel like I’ve found a job I really enjoy although it doesn’t totally pay the bills, I am still proud of myself.
Incident #1: I am having a HARD time getting over a legal event that happened to a co-worker.
Incident #2: House episode that made me feel like I was a medical case and I’ll never be cured and I’ll have to take pills the rest of my life and continue to make life hard for those around me.
I feel guilty for being who I am, I am a burden to my parents no matter how nice they are about it, my medical issues will need to be paid for by them for a long time to come and I'm 24 years old. How will I ever move forward with my life if I can't even afford my own life?
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No no no! No, Miss Brenna, you can not start to blame yourself for things beyond your control. After reading this journal, I highly recommend telling your primary care doctor about this. You are where i once was and where that is, is hell. I\'m so sorry you\'re in so much pain.