Today I did it....

I can't believe, I have my scrapbook half done.  I didn't even feel I could do it, but it was worth it.  Finding things in his baby book...bringing back sweet memories, holding his little ring he wore, his necklace out of string he wore around his neck for Bible School.  I think that making a scrapbook is really a good thing to do...I did not cry, I just remembered the happy time, the smiles on his face as he did different things, holding his new born brother's and so proud of them....seeing a lot of his "first" he did.  Oh I could fill up a thousand books, I think.  I want to make copies of the scrapbook for the family.  I would like to give a copy to his son on his birthday in July...I hope that would be a good ideal.  But it was worth it to me to do...So many memories, so many happy times sorta get lost in our grief sometimes, I do believe.  As I looked at the pictures today, it brought back those times, and yes it brought some sadness knowing there won't be more pictures taken in the future, but it actually gave me more smiles than anything.  So if you can and have thought of not doing it,,,,give it a try,,,you might find it is good therapy, at least I feel it did.
To all you wonderful friends, how would I ever live without each of you.  Your insights are so appreciated and so well meaning...thank you so much.
I finally posted a profile of me and hubby so maybe you will know us when we get to the retreat...If not we can just look at each other and think "I know them from somewhere"  then we will remember, Great, that is my wonderful friend from DS..
So looking forward to meeting each of you at the retreat....Take care...For the dad's out there, we don't forget you, we know it is rough on Mother's Day and we know it is hard for your all too...So for you dad's I say, cry if you want, talk about it if you want, just remember us mom's are there for you too.
Your friend,
Sandi