today has been the worse day ever

today has been so bad my auntie who is alcohol dependant got rushed into hospital on 6th september as she had drank way to much and the nursessaid she will not be here for christmas if she carried on drinking so that shocked her into not drinking but now she is drinking again......my other auntie has taken an over dose (she knows how much she means to me so why does she have to hurt me) i love her so much.i have cut myself 3 times today and i have made myself sick