Today
Today has been boring and what I want anyway my foster sister asked if I wanted to go with her to her friends house today but I'm not ready for all that yet I watched a couple of movies that was recommended for me and they were ok they had some cute boys in them I liked to see
I miss my uncle today I feel alone and want him to hold me and tell me it's ok there's been a lot of changes in only 6 days it feels like weeks I'm sorry I got him arrested but I know he would really hurt me by now I just want someone to hold me like he did and make things better this why I miss him right now
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I understand your feelings. I still miss my abuser too. He died years ago and I still mourn his death and wish he was alive. Those who never been in our type of situation may not be able to fathom this but its real, it happens and its hard to let go. He is your family and you had a loving relationship with him even if he hurt you. I loved mine too and I always will.
I hope u will find someone safe to hug & not your uncle. I know your uncle is family & that's why u miss him but he isn't good for u so it's good u r not with him which u probably already know but I'm sorry you can't be with your uncle & I wish he didn't do that to you to where u had to do what you had to do. It was nice of your foster sister to ask you if you wanted to go with her to visit her friend. It's nice that you may make a friend in your new living situation. I hope u both will like each other. It's nice u watched a few movies that were recommended to you & u saw a few cute guys on the show. I'd love to know what movies you saw if you wouldn't mind but if you do mind no worries. Hugs & love
We all want to feel loved and comfortable where we're at. What your uncle was showing wasn't real love. I know it's super hard to see that right now but you will see that someday. I can't imagine being torn from your life you're so use to and have to move a couple times and have to deal with all the people and doctors. It's not fair I know. It will get better soon sweetheart.
You should try hanging out with your foster sister. It's obvious she wants to include you by asking if you want to go with her. It's her way of saying she accepts you the way you are to invite you to be with her people. That's big girl. If you really don't want to go or be involved, then tell her why. Tell her how you feel. She was once new to the system and scared just like you. She can help you adjust to everything. I hate to say you're probably not getting out of foster care soon so you need to get use to it all but that is the reality of it. I'm always here for you so don't be afraid to talk to me. Love you lots girl. XOXO
I seclude myself too sometimes. Nothing wrong with that. We need it sometimes.