Today

so me and my honey broke up (that sucks) but I’m doing a lot better with everything (externally atleast). 

We’re staying friends (she’s “dating” dickhead [pardon my french but i don’t know the what level of language people here at comfortable with yet and I’d rather not give his name out of respect] sorta)

she’s not doing well but I’m talking her through it (this seems like a more extreme version of an episode the more she tells me) while trying to run interference between our families (we were a favorite couple) and keeping people off her back so she has some space to work things out 

she goes back and forth daily on whether us getting back together is a maybe or a probably but at this point I’m more worried about her

i want her to get better and come back but I feel like the thing she needs most right now is space to sort her head out (senioritis sucks) then we can worry about us. 

Just an update for anyone who’s listening  (honestly more a way to organize my thoughts)