Today

Today is okay. Nut I really don't know how to feel. I feel sad kind of today. Some days it is like that. But some days are happy. And sometimes I just feel nothing at all. I take medication for my PTSD. And I think it helps out. I haven't had a panic attack in a bit so that is a good sign.  Right now I feel like crying and being in my room alone. Some days are hard some are easier. I am new on here and I hope this could help me. A support group I was in not to long ago at my hospital made me want to end it all. And caused a lot of problems. So I hope this is differnt. I just want to feel understood. I want my grandma to know I am bisexual but I know she won't understand and won't really want to except it. She would get out the bible and read what it says. And it really irritates me. I just don't know what to do. I could only talk to one of my sisters and some of my friends. But that isn't enough.  Feel like crying and hugging my pillow.