Today

I don't know what else to do. I started seeing a new pdoc and he took me off those other meds that weren't really helping and put me on concerta and all types of vitamins. Well really only three. Fish oil, tums and vitamin d3. I also take androgel. Anyhow I ran out of concerta and he put me on addreral. That wasn't helping so I went back on conertA. I read these internet articles from other people not getting better with trileptal and it scares me to the point whereI called this doctor like 6 times and he hasn't returned my calls. At first I was not going to take the trileptal and just cut it in half and ween down but decided to try it even though it says it doesn't help depression. I feel so lost and scared. I'm on gov assistance and don't know what I would do if I didn't have my mother to help fill out paper work. I shouldn't have to live life like this. I ask myself what I did to deserve this and maybe I dont know maybe some things but I never hurt/killed anyone.  I'm just feeling sorry for myself. MEan time I hold a job and live alone. I only have my mother, sister and 2 nephews truly as my close family.  Only a few friends..I don't know..I mean I would like to get married again some day and don't blame my wife for not wanting to deal with the bipolar/depression. I pray more than I ever did..Just please..if anyone has somethign good to share about trileptal I'd love to hear it..
thank you,
jamison