Toby my love

My personal goals is trying go get up enough courage and strength to just do  the normal functions life like mopping the. Floors or washing the dishes 
I just cant seen to make myself get out of bed in The  morning what's the use,
I don't eat because I don't want to mess with it. My depression is getting worse not better I am trying  get  disability    because I'm deaf in one ear. And I have back spasem and my depression is getting worse and worse
I have no income coming in my husband made sure he took good care of his family he died from renal failure but he was so sick 
My son is in Florida which makes it hard on me but me daughter is here in WV  
I just wonder if i should call the social security office and tell the I have no insurance so I can't get it checked out. I'm more worried about the depression because I can't function.