Today

Well I wouldn't exactly call it sad, it was more of a disapointment. Its just the book I was looking forward to is not coming till next week or the week after! That really sucks! But whatever atleast I'll get it eventually, it will just take that bit longer. (to tell the pathetic truth I wanted to see if I could use any of the advice within to help me with talking to him you know.)Its the meeting again, and I suppose I am glad of it! But not as much as I have been in the past, I feel not as excited, and I feel like I'm not doing it for a purpose. (I did like to bake in the past just to see if he would say something nice, and when he did, it put a smile on my face if just for that moment.) I am decided though, I must not expect anything from him, because in a way, it is selfish of me to expect that of him. He very well may never marry, because he wants to be single for the Lord or something. I don't know! I would say I should stop falling for guys who are totally devoted to the Lord! But the ones who are not, I would more likely end up divorcing, so it is more better for me to like one in the church, I do not ever want to experience divorcre!well whatever, I don't care to think of guys in that way for the time being!