To young to feel this old.

         Hello, from Texas   Had an awful vacation this week.  My family and I went to Sea World.   It should have been fun but it was not had to walk miles and miles in the hot sun.   I thought I was going to die.  When you weight is 390 pounds how can it not hurt.   I am just so sick of being fat.   I was suppose to lose weight for nephews wedding but that has not happened.   No matter what I do I seem to fail.  I am only 37  years old.  I been fat all my life.  I weight 230 pounds when graduated high school.   I been try to lose weight since I was thirdteen years old.  Sometime it works but it always comes back on.    I had a year and a half to lose weight for the wedding but I have not lose a pound.  I an so ashamed of my self .  The wedding is two weeks away and nothing fits right everything looks awful.  We are flying to Boston for the wedding so guess what I have to have and extra seat because I am so fat.  I hate my self and just want to die.