To my friends

I just noticed that it has been 11 days since I last wrote a journal entry.  Believe me, there are a lot of things I would like to write about.  However, as in person, I guess I sometimes find it difficult to express what is going on in my life...good and bad.  DS has been a marvelous way for me to learn to be more sharing of my life with others...but old habits die hard. Often times when I'm driving, I have all of these thoughts in my head of what would be great to write in a journal.  However, at night, when I'm at the keyboard, I guess the mind freezes and the documenting those feelings doesn't happen. On the other hand, I do enjoy very much getting to know most of you a lot better.  I spend most nights reading the journal entries you have all made...and I try to respond in some fashion.  I may not always know what to say and certainly don't always have any "magic" words of inspiration, but I do try and leave some type of message so that you know I have read your journal entries and wish you well. I also try to come up on discussions on the various group boards I am subscribed too.  Again, I may not have anything profound to say, but I do try and let folks know that I have read their discussion thread and try to respond in some fashion. It's funny because whether I am responding to someone's journal entry or a group discussion thread, it seems easier for me to express my feelings, opinions, experiences that it is for me to initiate such a discussion on mine own in my own journal.  I guess I find it easier to "let my guard" down and respond to someone when may be experiencing similar problems/feelings that I face...and it is easier for me to respond to them. Last Decemeber, I started a private journal log for my children.  Just something that I will randomly enter thoughts/feelings, etc. into.  I thought it might be a nice gift to give them someday when they are adults...to know how I experienced life being a father while watching them grow up...and hopefully to give them some guidence when they are parents raising kids someday.  Unfortunately, like this journal, I sometimes find it difficult to sit down and make a journal entry.  Something I definitely ned to work on.  Maybe a good 2009 new year's resoltion? In any case, I hope you are all well.  I pray for all of you each day.  I share in your sorrows when things are not going well and cheer for you when things are going well.  It has been a Godsend for me in finding this DS environment and to get to know such great folks as you my friends.  Take care and be well!