To my brother

To my brother who called last night, again, to ask, beg and threaten for money. 
Who cried like a baby, "just this one last time and you won't hear from me again"
Who made our father beg God he doesn't die before he sees his son well. 
Who never calls me. 
Who is in a state of panic and delusion
Who curses like I've never heard before
Who stole away from me what is most precious to me: my parents' health
Who showed me the road to be more accepting
Who has stolen from us
Who used to be a handsome young man
Who made me shout and scream alone in my car while driving back from one more failed therapy meeting of his
Who gave our mother a heart attack
Who smelled so badly the last time I saw him
Who used up all his second chances for nothing
Who used to play with me when we were little kids, games we'd make up. 
Who stood up for me
Who used me 
Who lied to me
Who cursed and threatened me
Who I hugged in the middle of the street telling him that it's going to be OK
Who I can't trust
Who I care for so much
Who I pray for every single night since 2004
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