to much to ask for

  its seems like im having a hareder and harder time talking to getting alone and connecting with people. its always been something that was hard for me but the past few years since there hasnt been any drugs and not really much drinking it just sem like i cant talk to people i try and try and seem to get shot down i talk to them for a little bit and theydrift away i always make the effort to try but it seems like noone really makes the effort to talk to me. its hard for me it scares me i feel like im slowly losing my  abilty to even talk to another human. what is it that i do wrong why am i so off putting to everyone. i do what people have asked i tried to be positive and think better of myself but even then i still get nothing . i even feel like my husban could careless sometimes if he was htalking to me or not. i just want ti feel liked to fell like i really have friends not people who are forced to be around me or that are just trying to be nice. i just want to feel some what normal is that really to much to ask for