to much emotions

I can't stand this roller coaster of emotions. One moment I hate him so much I could literaly kill him. This is mostley in the night when all the days emotions I guess catch up with me and he is here. The morning I has so sad that I can't stop crying and I rmember the good times and being a family unit. I wish he could move out already so I can start the healing process and he is not in my face trying to make it like we are a normal couple. I hate him so much.