to be nothin

i often wonder why im alive. why do i live? whats the point? whats the point to wakin up every day to what? dad that hates me? kids at school that fuck with me? teachers to talk down to me? friends that are fake? a world thats cold? a life thats goin nowere? fuck man some times theres never enuf pills to make anythin ok. burnins not workin. pills not workin.. nothin. theres nothin. got nothin. no one. nothin. i didnt mean to be nothin. i wanted to be someone. i wish i had the balls to kill myself. nobody would care