Tired of the PAIN !!!!!

I don't know what to do Anymore !!!!  I keep trying what My Doctor prescribes for Me to supposedly relieve the Pain I'm in from BOTH of My Knees, but NOTHING EVER TRULY HELPS !!!! I continue to go BACK to My Doctor, and I explain that what He's prescribed for Me is NOT truly helping, and He DOESN'T give Me anything stronger.... this Last Time all He did was say that He'll allow Me to start taking 2 Oxycodones Every 6 Hours for Pain, INSTEAD OF 1 Every 6 Hours ! I guess He figures TWICE as much of it should make a Difference, but I don't think He has a clear picture of just how EXTREME my Pain is. I'm talking about Pain that's SO BAD that You can BARELY get up to walk to the Bathroom when You NEED to go ! That's a TERRIBLE FEELING... trust Me on this.... when You NEED to go Very Badly, but the PAIN in Your Knees, and BOTH LEGS, is SO BAD that it has You on the Verge of TEARS ! In Fact, a LOT of the Time I'll end up Crying during that awkward Walk from My Recliner Chair to the Bathroom.... as I'm hanging onto My Cane - TRYING to make it Help Me get to My Destination ! The Thing is the Way I end up Hunching Over My Cane, it's not a very big surprise that I've been having a LOT of Back Pain lately - especially within the Last Month, or two, while My Knees have been a LOT worse. I can't help it, though. As Bad as My Knees are, I simply CAN'T straighten My Legs out at the Knees anymore. As a Result of this, I end up struggling to Walk in a Very Much Hunched-Over Manner ! Sometimes I almost Laugh at Myself as I imagine what I must look like... I'm Only 41, but I can imagine because of the Way I struggle so much to TRY to Walk AT ALL I probably Look like I'm about 90 Years Old, or so !I would Pay Someone a MILLION BUCKS - IF I had it, and IF it would mean that They would make it so I could Walk Normally Again ! I haven't been able to Walk normally for Many Years now, because of the Severe Osteoarthritis in BOTH of My Knees... AND YET, My STUPID DAMN INSURANCE COMPANY has the NERVE to DENY My Request to get a Power Wheel Chair - or Power Scooter Chair - which I so DESPERATELY NEED !!!! I don't Understand My Insurance Company ! They have ALL of the PROOF showing how Much I NEED this ! And Yet, They have the NERVE to say as a Reason for DENIAL that My Doctor has NOT shown Them Enough Proof that it's " Medically Neccessary " for Me to have One ! BULLSH*T !!!!!!My Doctor has Agreed with Me that They're CRAZY, so of course We're going to APPEAL My Insurance Company's Decision. BUT WHO KNOWS what'll happen !?!?!?! There's NO TELLING how Long an Appeal will Take.... or that Matter there's even NO TELLING how Long it'll take before I get an ANSWER to My Appeal back from My Insurance Company ! I'm so fed up.... frustrated... angry... annoyed... ticked off... devastated.... take Your Pick... I'm ALL of that, and MORE right now !!!! I can BARELY Walk around My One-Bedroom Apartment, and My Insurance Company claims My Doctor didn't show that a Power Wheel Chair is a Medical Neccessity ! UGH !!!!! IF ONLY the Insurance Company Executives could see Me struggling to get around in My Apartment.... IF They could see Me struggling to Walk - even with a Cane, or My Walker - I wonder IF They'd change Their Minds ?!!! For Now... I don't know WHAT to do, because I'm basically a Captive in My Own Home.I can't deal with the PAIN anymore of Struggling to Walk to the Front of My Apartment Building in order to go to Someone's Car - IF I need to go Somewhere. I just can't take that EXTREME PAIN anymore ! It's just TOO MUCH ! The Pain is so BAD when I try to Walk that Far that by the Time I get to the Person's Car I'm ready to Pass OUT practically, and I'm Very Close to Tears from the Extreme Pain ! So, I've given Up going Out Anywhere - Except IF I really HAVE To, like for a Doctor's Appointment. But, for Something like Grocery Shopping, I'm LUCKY that My Niece helps Me out. She'll do My Grocery Shopping for Me as Long as I don't make the List TOO Long. I'm careful about that, and instead of making a LONG list like I used to when I went out with My Niece to do My Grocery Shopping, I'll cut My List in Half instead.It's much Easier for My Niece to do it that Way - especially since She has Her little Boy Jordan to think about. Jordan - My Great Nephew - is about One Year, and about 4 Months Old, by now. He's so Precious. He's the Light of My Life. I LOVE seeing Him any Chance I can.I always Hope that My Niece will bring Him by here, but a lot of the Times She doesn't because it's Easier for Her If He's not with Her - since it's hard for Her to do My Grocery Shopping with Him to take care of at the Same Time. I can understand that, of course. It just makes it even More of a Blessing whenever She is able to bring Him by here. Anyways.... I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so sick of this Pain. It keeps Me Up most Nights.Even when I take a Couple of Sleeping Tablets, the Pain will still break through that Drowsiness to keep Me Awake ! So I just end up like a Zombie the Next Day, after I had taken Sleeping Tablets the Night Before. Today I went ahead and took 3 Pain meds where I'm only supposed to take 2. I know that's a big No-No, but WHAT ELSE can I do ????? I need some Relief from this Pain... SOMEHOW !!!!! I can't take it Anymore ! So far 3 actually seems to have broken up the Pain somewhat, so I'm not feeling completely guilty about going against Doctor's orders. I'm going to take 3 again after 6 Hours have passed, and see how I feel after that too. I won't do this Every Single Day, though. For One Reason, because that would make My Pain Meds run out TOO QUICKLY, and for One Other Reason, because I DON'T want to become completely addicted to these Meds..... I simply want to AT LEAST find Some Relief for the Days I'm in A LOT OF EXTREME PAIN ! I don't think that's too much to ask for... or to want.