Tired of it all
I'm simply getting tired of it all. Tired of feeling sad. Tired of feeling panicky when I'm alone. Tired of the endless days of having to make do...knowing my life will never be good and meaningful or joyful again. I also hurt so that my husband has given me no signs...nothing. I so need to feel that and I can't understand why he hasn't. We had a long good marriage and were close
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Are you still feeling this way? Colleen
Yes unfortunately ..and still no sign
It\'s September and I just read your journal entry from November... I felt like I could have WRITTEN it! I too keep looking for the signs I keep asking for..twice just recently I have found them! And after all these months of tears! Then the tears come because I\'m so happy! Things can be so
confusing! And then I want more immediately!! But don\'t give up! I think we must just be on different time systems than they are...knowing how much we were loved, they\'re just having a delivery problem and we just have to be patient and alert. Peace and comfort to you. Sandra /Stormanchor
Not really sure if I have had a sign or not. Either way if the two times It could have been a sign they really were they were not what I was hoping for. Once saw him falling and crying when his sons mother died and then my lamp blinked when I was telling a friend about the awful things his brother was doing and that he would be so angry with his brother. Kind of would like a good dream or sign. I did think I felt his presence next to me at church 2 weeks ago, but that could have been loneliness and wishful thinking. For now I choose to think it was him, but I need more. I agree that the time is very different on the other side. Hang in there and take whatever comfort you can get.