tired of it all

it seems like most of my journel entrys are listed as frustrating. and why is the txt size so damn small???first the dr says joint dysfuntion, inflammation, and such. then after i bleed from the rectum and get severe stomache pain with the back getting worse im told kidney stones, diverticulosis, and some as yey unknown infection. now im being told that the kidney stones, being still in the kidneys dont cause pain,( even tho i have talked to people who have had them and they say B.S.) that the ct doesnt show diverticulosis, and the doc questions whether there is an infection at all. ( more blood work yay) i'll find out later today about that. on top of all that the dr screwed up my script of oxycodone and only gave me 30 instead of the 60 we agreed on. so i have to go back to the dr office and get that fixed. im so tired of "mystery" pain. with all the technology why cant they figure it out?? to have one dr say one thing and then another dr says another 2 days later who do i believe?? i was actually happy when the e.r. told me kidney stones and the diverticulosis, at least i knew what it was and it would( i thought )go awy. i dont know how much more i can take. im not talking suicide. i would never do that to my kids and mom, but im getting to the point of just lay on the couch all day and give up trying to manage. i really feel like god and goddess have given up on me.