Tired of feeling like this :(
I am so tired of feeling this way. EVERYDAY I know I am better off without him in my life, but EVERYDAY I'm always sadder that I'm alone. Being together for two years taught me a lot on what to expect out of life, and I learned my fair share of lessons.
He lied about all the little things. Like that he had gotten a football scholarship, that he had cancer and went to have surgery, that he worked in the oil rigs, and that he had a culinary certification from University of Texas. These were just to name a few. It enfuriates that I put up with this and we didn't end it sooner. Numerous days I said I want to throw the towel in, but then I couldn't imagine myself alone or not talking to him on the phone at night. It's hard to end everything when you've given your all to that person and even discussed a future.
Things came to an end in early November. I was so pissed that he couldn't even talk about it and discuss eachothers property we had. I told his parents and some of his friends his lies. Sent his teacher the paper I practically rewrote for him. I know he will never forgive me for doing this, but he never stopped. I don't ever want to be this type of girl again. I just can't believe someone would lie to me like he did when he knew all the pain I went through with my parent's divorce.
He unblocked my sister on facebook and I looked at his profile pic of him at someones apartment showing off his cookie monster underwear. I upset me because the one thing I liked about him was that he could strike up a convo with anyone. Maybe that's why I am sad, I feel like a huge social aspect has left me. I am definately not as outgoing as he was. This whole summer when I was with him I would cry, and he always made everythign my fault. MAYBE if you could tell the truth and not fabricate everything to be liked. He even called me crazy. I am just writing this to vent. I feel so sad now after looking at his facebook. Sometimes I feel like I will be alone forever, and maybe thats why it makes me said. I'm only 23 and have a future ahead of me. I can't let one person bring me down anymore. I turned into a person I never want to be again! I can't let that bullshit go on, when I made an effort to change he should of kept his promise too. I honestly feel like he wanted to be the frat guy and just be wild. My friends call him the "clown" and tell me what a different person he made me.
I try to be happy, and somedays are better than others. I just need to keep my head help up high :)
He lied about all the little things. Like that he had gotten a football scholarship, that he had cancer and went to have surgery, that he worked in the oil rigs, and that he had a culinary certification from University of Texas. These were just to name a few. It enfuriates that I put up with this and we didn't end it sooner. Numerous days I said I want to throw the towel in, but then I couldn't imagine myself alone or not talking to him on the phone at night. It's hard to end everything when you've given your all to that person and even discussed a future.
Things came to an end in early November. I was so pissed that he couldn't even talk about it and discuss eachothers property we had. I told his parents and some of his friends his lies. Sent his teacher the paper I practically rewrote for him. I know he will never forgive me for doing this, but he never stopped. I don't ever want to be this type of girl again. I just can't believe someone would lie to me like he did when he knew all the pain I went through with my parent's divorce.
He unblocked my sister on facebook and I looked at his profile pic of him at someones apartment showing off his cookie monster underwear. I upset me because the one thing I liked about him was that he could strike up a convo with anyone. Maybe that's why I am sad, I feel like a huge social aspect has left me. I am definately not as outgoing as he was. This whole summer when I was with him I would cry, and he always made everythign my fault. MAYBE if you could tell the truth and not fabricate everything to be liked. He even called me crazy. I am just writing this to vent. I feel so sad now after looking at his facebook. Sometimes I feel like I will be alone forever, and maybe thats why it makes me said. I'm only 23 and have a future ahead of me. I can't let one person bring me down anymore. I turned into a person I never want to be again! I can't let that bullshit go on, when I made an effort to change he should of kept his promise too. I honestly feel like he wanted to be the frat guy and just be wild. My friends call him the "clown" and tell me what a different person he made me.
I try to be happy, and somedays are better than others. I just need to keep my head help up high :)
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