Tired of Being Imperfect

Over the past few days I have come to the realization that I may endometriosis as well as having PCOS .  I haven’t been diagnosed by a doctor yet but the signs are there.   I am starting to think that I may actually be infertile.  I know there are different methods of help with trying to conceive but I truly believed that loosing weight would help my PCOS, I did get periods but now there is another issue, the possibility of endometriosis.  I really hope that I don’t have it considering that PCOS is bad enough, now I could possibly suffer from two infertility causing conditions!   I feel so bad right now; this just gave me one more reason to hate my body even more.  I understand why I keep having bad luck in my life; I really don’t need this right now.  I’m tired of feeling imperfect and being jealous of others.  It’s not fair!   If God really loved me he would just take me away now and spare me the misery.