Tired of always waiting
Well I talked to the nurse today and I'm kind of disappointed that once they get all my results back from my tests (in about 2 weeks), I'll be put on my clinic's waiting list and right now the waiting period to start a cycle is about 2 months. Now I get to wait until they can tell me when I get my turn.
I guest January or Febuary isn't that far off but when I start thinking that in the last year I was only able to do a cycle in May, I'm wondering when I'll get pregnant if I'm almost never trying. Don't get me wrong. I'm very lucky that in Quebec IVF is now covered by our government and that I almost have not cost compared to most of my DS friends. The problem is that since the change in coverage is recent, the clinics now have long waiting lists.
DH is kind of happy because in the past year this is the first time that I start AF without a IUD. He's happy that we can actually say we'll be trying the good old fashion way for at least two months. While I'm really happy to be getting my sex life back, I'm trying to be a little more realistic on the chances that we would conceive on our own with no meds at all.
The good news is that now that AF is here, it's been 3 days with a good flow. I tend to be to optimistic for my own good. I keep thinking maybe DH is right, maybe if AF is strong, that my lining is getting thick enough on it's own and that the scars are better. My RE even told us that she corrected some with my last surgery and that she thinks it looks way better than before my MC. Should I load up on HPT for the next couple of cycles, I don't know. I'd really like to believe in miracles, that maybe my mc wasn't for nothing.
Guest only time will tell...
I guest January or Febuary isn't that far off but when I start thinking that in the last year I was only able to do a cycle in May, I'm wondering when I'll get pregnant if I'm almost never trying. Don't get me wrong. I'm very lucky that in Quebec IVF is now covered by our government and that I almost have not cost compared to most of my DS friends. The problem is that since the change in coverage is recent, the clinics now have long waiting lists.
DH is kind of happy because in the past year this is the first time that I start AF without a IUD. He's happy that we can actually say we'll be trying the good old fashion way for at least two months. While I'm really happy to be getting my sex life back, I'm trying to be a little more realistic on the chances that we would conceive on our own with no meds at all.
The good news is that now that AF is here, it's been 3 days with a good flow. I tend to be to optimistic for my own good. I keep thinking maybe DH is right, maybe if AF is strong, that my lining is getting thick enough on it's own and that the scars are better. My RE even told us that she corrected some with my last surgery and that she thinks it looks way better than before my MC. Should I load up on HPT for the next couple of cycles, I don't know. I'd really like to believe in miracles, that maybe my mc wasn't for nothing.
Guest only time will tell...
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Ahh you have every right to be upset you have to wait another two months, you have waited on so much for so long! But I like your optimism and will pray that god would bless you with a pregnancy in your own while you wait! That would be beyond incredible!!
While it seems like we IF ladies are always waiting for something, two months sounds so long! But, enjoy the TTC without being pumped full of hormones and other drugs, and maybe you\'ll get your BFP! And if not, well, at least have some fun and stay positive while you wait for your next IVF to start:)
Good luck to you! Waiting is so hard. I will keep you in my prayers.
I think the waiting is always the hardest part. Hopefully it gives you time to enjoy the holidays without IF stuff on your mind. I\'m glad you have a plan though. I\'m praying that soon it will be your turn. :)
Thats frustrating have to wait 2 months when you have already waited so long. I hope you have a natural before those 2 months are up...and you have an activity to pass the time :)