Tired

So I made it to church today. I've been telling myself and God that I would go for ... Months. I know I'm forgiven but still feel guilty for saying it so much and not following thru. 

I recently discovered...in recent years anyway, that my beliefs fall in line most closely with the Seventh Day Adventist Church. I missed church, and was glad to be back today.

I decided to make myself a cosmo,  though, tonight. It's been a rough couple of days, and it sounded good, but it was stronger thann I recall, and now...well, I'm ready for bed. My back and neck wete hurting though, so it had a medicinal effect in that sense. But I won't have alcohol for awhile, I think. ... ... Because I've gotten to a point that I just can't quite handle it very well.

Like I said, it was at least a better day. That's enough for now.

Goodnight.