Tired

Didn't realize it's been so long since I wrote in here.  Where does the time go?  The only news here is that my brother is not doing to good.  He has lost a lot of weight and his bed sores are not doing so good.  He refuses to go back to the nursing home cus he hates it there.  He does have a aide for half of a day.  A nurse comes once a week and the Dr once a month.  I am trying to Let Go, Let God cus I cannot heal him or make him eat.  I do go and get him whatever it is he wants to eat.  It's not easy cus most of his teeth is gone now.  That is from the morphine he takes for his pain.  He goes on Thurs to see the urionlogist (sp) once again about the leaking urine.   I don't think they know what to do.  It's like a never ending circle with him.  

I have mold on the porch.  It is not black mold, which is the worse you can have.  So that is good.   Had it checked last week.  $425  ugh!!   It's not that bad in the trailer, what is in here he thinks is coming from the porch.  The wall out there has to come down.  That would cost $1200 and up depending on the contractor.  My sister was going to talk to her husband and they may do it but not till spring.  I am looking into air purifiers but they are not cheap.

I have my good and bad days.  Being alone is the pits.  I tend to talk to the cats a lot lately.  Or I will put some music on and sing along.  They don't seem to mind I can't sing  lol   I have my tree up and I turn them on along with my other decorations which lights up the place which helps some.   They say to do that and it will lift the sprits.  But it does not last.  I do get out and about.  I don't know how some of these people in this trailer park can stay in for days on end.  I get cabin fever and have to get out.  I guess that is from growing up on a farm and we were always outside unless the weather was so bad we couldn't.  One reason I miss FL.  I know this time of the year it's nice down there.  Such is life I guess....