Tird of it all

Im so tired of being a single mom 90% of the time. Dh is always gone for work. ALWAYS. The 2 nights he was hom ethi sweek it was after Ian went to bed. He just left for switzerland today. I have to take care of the baby and find a new house and do all the regular day to day stuff and im over it. I have no helo no support. We have no marriage. Im exhasted and tired when he gets home. I may have 45 minutes to update him on the days events. When he is home i just want to go somewhere any where and have ME time. SO then i dont get to see DH. I hate hate hate it. I cant tell you how many times I have drempt about getting a divorce this week. Its crazy, I mean we dont fight likr crazy he treats me good when is is here, its just everything else. I honestly just want to move back to GA. He can stay here till he transfers. I knwo I cant do that but I just want to cry. This is not the life I want. Not at all. I dont have a husband, im alone all the time. Im getting depressed again and I just got off meds for PPD. The stress of trying to find a house is horrible. The market has actually bankrupted some home owners associations so you cant even get loans on certain houses. Its crazy. I dont know what to do. I have to make all the desicions. Every single one. DO we move closer pay more for less, or live a little further out and get more for our money. do we stay in the smae general area and hope the market picks up out here? I have to make all teh choices so if I pick the wrong one its all on me. Im not sleeping at all the stress is tearing up my tummy. Im down to 125lbs. Its crazy ive lost like 4-5 pounds in a very short period of time. But i still have these ugly fat nasty theighs. I look like a cartoon charecter.



Wow!! You have a lot on your plate! It\'s so hard to be able to focus on you when you don\'t have time to! Is there anyone (daycare, nanny, friend) that could watch your little one while you take some time?

Honestly, I would move closer and spend more for less. I know that seems like crazy talk BUT time is more important than space!! Like you said you don\'t see your husband much as it is, so trying to focus on family time is nicer than have a bigger house.

Please talk to your doctor if you\'re feeling depressed. There\'s nothing wrong with going back on the medication if it helped you...especially with all of the tough decisions you\'re having to make now.

I\'ll be praying for you..

and as far as the big ole thighs, I\'m right there with ya LOL It seems like everything else is fine, but for some reasons my thighs keep on bulking up...but I have my health and I know I could spend more effort on toning them up!