Time will tell, I pray

  It was a difficult day at the dealership on Saturday.  Not to many people buying cars and of course it is the fault of the salemen according to the managers.  I does create a twinge of anixety in the chest.  I will be looking for work again soon.  I mean, I have the teaching job, I mean a second job. Most people are happy with one, I would be too.  I got to see my kids today at church.  I was awesome to see them, it was also sad.  My nine year old boy was happy to me see me but a little distant.  It is not quite like him to be that way but with all he has been through being separated from his dad, I can understand.  My 2 year old little girl was a first not sure who I was but warmed up to me quickly.  She was very happy to be hugging on her dad again.  When her mother took her away at the end of church, it was really cool the way she was waving to me. My oldest girl was the most distant of all.  A 12 year old and a mature one at that.  Perhaps she misses me, it is hard to tell.  Glory days continue.  I will ahve 7 months sober in 2 weeks.  I have been through alot and I am sure alot more is coming.  If I am lucky I will get to keep my car after this week,, we will see what the bank says.  I am balancing it all with the grace of God keeping me going.  I was neat to see the kids.  I am glad my ex is taking care of them as well as she can.  God willing, I will get this alcohol thing resolved in court and she wont have a choice to let me see them or not.  I am getting back my rights that the court was so quickly to take away yet so slow to give back.  I can only wonder what will be next.