Time to sell my life.
So today I'm having a yard sale to try and get rid of some of things.In three weeks I will have no house and no where to store my things,so I decided to have a yard sale.Talk about depressed.Sometimes you have to push through your fight with depression and just do it.I have to act like I'm fine and put on a smile and try to talk people into buying my things,knowing they want something for nothing.It's going to be a long day.
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I woke up to a cold and rainy day.I can\'t ever get out of bed on these days,because I am reminded of everyone I\'ve lost these last two years.And just wonder why I\'m still here.I should be dead by now but by gods grace I still live on.Why am I still here.my heart is broke ,I can\'t even work without suffering pain,I\'ve lost the will to live. I just sit here and wait for that letter that will tell me to get out of my home.Then I will be homeless living out my life in a rv and waiting for something positive.Please tell me ,why I am still here.
Virginiadale,... I am \"so sorry\" you have had to go through this! That is absolutely horrible. --- Please keep trying to figure out things that you might be able to do that may get you out of this and may help you. --- Have you ever thought of trying to move farther down south, where it is warmer for most of the year? --- If you think of something that might help, do it, \"just do it\", give a try.
--- Hang in there the best you can, you gotta try.
Another cold and rainy day.We\'re days away from being served an eviction notice.I\'m blank in my brain.I\'m trying to pull the energy up to pack what I want to keep and it\'s just not happening.How did my life get so screwed up?I don\'t have any answers no more.It\'s not so easy to just throw away your hole life and try to start over.I don\'t think I have the will to do this again.I have never felt this way and it\'s easy to say you can do it,but I\'m really low this time.I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.My life has turned into a nightmare.
Do you rent or own a home? If you rent, your landlord sounds like a jerk. If your house is being taken over by a bank, shame on them. ----- I\'ve had to pick-up and move over 10 times in my life. It\'s a \'huge\' stresser and tiring. ---- Moving down here in the south made a better improvement in a few ways. Finding very cheap rentals is easy in most areas here, and there\'s still alot of places that will say yes if you have pets. Some rental places are owned by people who live somewhere else at times, so they won\'t be stopping by very often at all, lol.
You have me really worried, I sure as heck hope you find a place to head to by the time you are supposed to leave your house.
Last place I lived in before moving down here was so terrible I got so sick I almost passed out one night in the basement that was full of water that was 7 inches high. In the winter when it was in the lower 20\'s, the heat kept shutting off, I had\'nt had sleep in many many hours, I was going into hypothermia, kept going into the basement to replace blown fuses and try to start up the old furnace, it would\'nt work. My landlord was an ignorant pr*ck who was just after money. I went into a bedroom, lit candles and snuggled up next to my shepherd/labrador, shaking from cold.
The old house was on a busy street and the noise was horrific, day and night. The basement was flooding, things in the house were failing, and my landlord let his two huge dogs run over to the house and they would beat up my dog (my dog was on a long cable line to keep him from leaving the property). Eventualy I fell to exhuastion, collapsed a few times and almost \'black-out\' on a freezing night in the flooded basement. So I did endless searches in Florida to find a place cheap and found one, so gathered up my crap and took off as soon as possible. If my landlord were to dare open his mouth and complain about me leaving a little early, he would have gotten in trouble for how bad that house was in and how disrespectful he was with his large dogs roaming all over the place.
I sure hope you can get-it-together and figure something out! You will be in my thoughts \'often\'.
Thanks L.T.,Sounds like you\'ve been through a lot to.Don\'t you have any family that cares?If not,you do now.We own our house and the bank that owns it is the same bank that my wife was driven out of.I\'ve lived in it for 13 years and was planning to grow old here.but that has all changed this year.I\'m packing what I want to keep and a church has offered help with storing it.With everything that happens,I know I\'m still blessed.Some people don\'t believe in God,but I know that I should have been dead a long time ago and miracles always seem to happen to show me that I have a friend that is not visible.I could tell you some stories,but there are a lot of people that don\'t want to hear it so I won\'t.You are a blessing.You sound so much like myself in a lot of ways.I so sorry you don\'t have no one,but you can think of that differently now.I will be in your life if you want.I\'m a person that never lies and always does what I can to be a good person.I\'ve had a great journey and it\'s about to get interesting once again.Thanks for showing up just in time.D
Oh God, I\'ve never had anyone observe things like you have about me, or say what you have. Sorry, my eyes are blurry at the moment.....
My immediate \'step-family\' do not care about anything but money, using others, conning others, material-things, image, controlling others and ego. The rest of my real relatives will not talk or associate with my immediate \'step-family\', they haven\'t done so for numerous years. So, no, I do not now have any family to converse with or be with, I haven\'t for many years.
Well, you can tell me whatever you need to. Thank God a church is storing your possessions for now. If I lived closer to you all, you could store your things at my place while you all are going through your transition.
Banks are a bunch of greedy crap these days. Just please hang in there and try to make it to somewhere new. And then concentrate on your health and what you all love to do in life.
Ok, my eyes are tearing, so have to go. Typing has become very difficult.
A huge {hug} to both of you.
I didn\'t mean to make you cry,but like myself,there are some people in this world that don\'t deserve what has been dealt to them.You are one of us and we have to help each other,because your right,most people are so selfish.I lost most of all my friends when I told them about the brain tumor.I guess they don\'t want to be there if something happens.But you know what,A brain tumor is not going to kill me.I have a powerful faith in God and I know it\'s not my time yet.Hugs to you and don\'t worry,everyday is a gift.
It\'s friday 2 of dec.So far know notice from our bank.Just dragging my misery on.I really think this is the wost time to lose everything.Now everybody is thinking of Christmas,I\'m dreading that knock at my front door.When an officer tells me how much time they\'re going to give me to leave my house.Nothing can help me any more.I have to try to gather the strength to deal with it.My head is pounding.I get the worst headaches you could ever imagine.I can\'t even get out of bed when I\'m like this.I would compare it to the worst hangover you could ever have.I have to go get a hot shower.That usually helps.
Screw the banks! They are into nothing but saving themselves.
I know what you mean, ... November and December seem to \'drain\' every ounce of money and mental strength everyone has, it is exhausting.
I think you really need to go do something fun, (something you have a big interest in), something that does\'nt cost alot of money, (like hiking, kayaking, going to a park photographing things).
Just doing something outdoors that takes your mind off of things for a few hours can do you a world of good.
I really can\'t because any day now I will have no choice but to live in my rv.I have to save as much as I can.And I\'m out of time and money.So that limits my choices.It will get better but right now,I have to keep my head in the game.